Tuesday, July 6

Change for a Dollar?

So, according to a personality test, I am a Golden Retriever. Some of the characteristics are a need for peace and harmony in life, as well as a desire to have a few friends and to know them deeply, a third is the inability to change. There are more, but if you know me at all, these three are enough to know that I am a Golden Retriever through and through. The characteristic I have the hardest time making sure it doesn't become a hinderance is the change. Now, this isn't like I can't change my schedule for the day, or have something different for dinner, it is a big picture, I had plans and now I can't do those plans change.

Take for instance, my summer plans. I had it planned out that I would go to summer school, overload on classes next year and graduate a year early. I was super excited to be done with college that early and on to the next phase of my life. God had other plans. He wanted me to take my time, enjoy my time at school and focus on Him. I found this out by having all of my plans fall through in a span of 2 days. Talk about a frustrating time. The thing I struggled with most was that I couldn't do what I wanted to do. I had ideas of how my life was going to go, and I can't do that anymore.

I slowly was able to get over my desires and to focus on God's instead. But, again, this summer is not going as planned. I expected free time at night to hang out with my friends who work in different departments than I do, time to sleep normally and especially time to hang out with my boyfriend. I am getting that, but in smaller doses and at different times than I expected. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it is a change in my plans. Also, this week I had expected to work days, and I found out today that I am actually going to work nights.

Now, there are 2 shifts, 6am-3:30 and 3:30 to 1am. I didn't really like working the morning shift, but I hated working the night shift, and was actually looking forward to working 2 weeks on the day shift. This shift allows me time to hang out with friends, go on dates and have more interactions with the guests. During the night shift, there is a lot of sitting around because the guests are all asleep. I am there just in case.

But, I am working the night shift, and I know that God is using this as another tool to mold me into a better woman and a more flexible one. I need to be able to handle change easily and to not fall apart whenever my plans go a rye.

I am also working on not complaining this summer, and the funny thing is, that when I don't take the time to complain about something going on and simply focus on accomplishing the task at hand, I can be cheerful and the time goes quickly.

I know that someday I will be able to handle change and to simply take what is given me with no complaints, at peace in the knowledge that it is all a part of God's plan for my life.